Day 4 and cravings appear

Today is day four in my juicing journey and I want to chew something. This morning’s smoothie was awesome, filled with apple, banana, pineapple, beetroot, spinach and some frozen berries. There are hungry-SOS’s on this plan, so I had a banana after lunch juice, for just to chew something. Luckily those things are allowed and not frowned upon.

I also have noticed that if I’m really bored, I start thinking about different kinds of foods that I could be eating and I know it is just the addiction in my head, trying to get the quick fix. Not going to work, not this time. I’ve been listening the videos from the SJM app and they really help me to concentrate why am I doing this. I’m not happy with my looks or the size of my body. Another thing that has happened after starting to juice, is that my fingers are like ice blocks and I’m feeling cold at the office, which usually never happens. Last time it happened when I was on Cambridge diet and ate under 700 calories per day and my body was on very low energy. Now it should not be on that low, because having all the nice and yummy avocados and banana’s, also adding hemp protein powder to my smoothies and sometimes even some spirulina. So I’m getting everything that my body needs, but I’ve just gotten used to eating way too many calories per day, so my body just has to get used to having really healthy food coming in and not any crap foods.

Then there is my consumption of water and herbal teas, feel like I’m going to the bathroom all the time and my pee is completely clear. Sorry about the talk about bodily fluids, but I want to tell the complete truth that how things are going with this challenge. During this 28 days’ session, I’ll hop on the scales once a week so that I can have some kind of information about my weight and in which direction it is going. Should be going down, because I’m not eating that much. Let’s see what has happened when I hop on the scales on Monday or Tuesday. Of course the weight loss is individual with people, but there has been people who has lost more than 30 pounds and that is amazing. I do not expect miracles but around 25lbs in 28 days would be quite awesome. Already feels that my skin is more clear and blemish free, nails are growing stronger and the dry patches have disappeared from my face and shoulders. So what there is not to like in juicing?

Juicing takes some time to get used not having something to chew, but it goes past quite fast. The first week can be the most awful, at least has been for me in the past. But the “hunger” pains go away and the energetic feelings come. I’m so much waiting for that to happen. Bloating is also something that I want to get rid of. 

My morning ritual

3rd Day going strong

I feel great. Had good tasting juices and smoothies. Was really tired yesterday and had a nap after work. Had my last juice of the day around nine, which I think was a bit late, but afterwards I just went back to bed. So as I wrote before, I’m doing this for 28 days just to give my digestive system a holiday to get rid of the crap that I usually eat, but also to get rid of toxin’s.

As I know that according to my weight and height I’m classified as very obese because my BMI is now around 37 and I have a very high risk of getting the following diseases:

• Heart disease
• Diabetes
• Arthritis
• Infertility
• Miscarriage
• Asthma
• Fatty liver disease
• Cancer

Also when having a BMI over 35 means that obesity related illnesses could severely affect my quality of life and shorten lifespan. Does not sound that nice does it? As I have been obese for a very long time and tried so many different things, so I do know that the best way of losing weight is by modifying eating habits and losing weight not too fast, because most of the time the weight come’s back quite fast.

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As an obese person, I have wished and hoped so many times that I would just wake up and be thin. To look in the mirror and see this person without love handles, muffin top, double chin, back fat or the way too thick arms with saggy skin. Unfortunately, there is no such a thing that would make it happen in a day, but with juicing, I’m going to get there. For these first 28 days, I’m having all the juices and smoothies, cleaning my body completely and at the same time losing weight. But for the weight loss to be permanent, I have to take normal food back gradually, with light soups and salads but also continuing the juicing.

I was supposed to take a picture on Monday but forgot, so maybe one tomorrow morning so that I’ll have these wonderfully horrible before and after pictures. But the thing is that I do hate pictures of myself, seeing all the bumps and my way too big stomach. But I’m doing this and that is final. The next 25 days are going to be very interesting. 

Feeling the heartbreak

I was “brave” yesterday. There is this guy, ex-co-worker of mine and he is great. The really long story very short, my feelings towards him grew more, especially after every time we met. So yesterday I told him that I like him more than a friend and he’s answer was the one that I knew I was going to hear; he does not see me like that. I have done it before too, displaying my interest towards a person, but usually the outcome is the same, the people who I have feelings for, does not feel the same. It might be a little awkward for some time, but I do want to continue being his friend.

I’m sad and maybe a little heartbroken at the moment. I cried yesterday quite a lot, but I think the reason for crying was that I was feeling sorry for myself. The pessimistic streak is how I cope and I do try not to except anything positive. Now my eyes are swollen and not feeling great, and the feeling’s I’m going through are lethargy and loss of appetite.

Maybe that is my future; being alone that is. No future husband or kids. Online dating is not a thing for me, because I have noticed that I've gotten stood up few times, and the reason I think is my size. I have full body pictures on my profile, but maybe they just imagine that I am smaller in real life. So annoying that is. Or maybe I'm now just way too dramatic and the right guy for me is somebody I've been ignoring because of my crush? I never know. But one thing that I do know that I'm moving forward and making plans. Those plans mean starting to use POF more and meeting more people, even if they just would become friends. 

Now off to bed. Over and out.

Super Juicing myself

Obesity. That is my biggest problem, pun intended, at the moment. I’ve tried many things, losing weight but then gaining it back again. Now I’m feeling so bloated and stuffed, like all the things I have been eating are such crap. On Friday I made a cake for work, had Burgers and few ciders here in Reading, continuing to the pub with the guys and then having few ciders there. On Saturday I had lots of crepes for breakfast, went to K’s house with E to celebrate my birthday. We ordered pizza before starting to drink, and oh boy did I drink too much. Before going to the bar, I had eight ciders, four shots and three drinks. At the bar I had Two glasses of tequila sunrise, two glasses of some kind of cranberry vodka thingy, continuing with two beers and a Smirnoff ice.

The next day I felt okay, little bit tired and small headache that went away with Burana and a nap. I also had some very greasy food after the nap, pizza and hash browns, so yeah, no wonder that the weight is piling back on. As I have tried juicing before and I know how well it can work, so I decided to have a 28-day Super Juice Me challenge. I did not go shopping on Sunday, so that happened yesterday after work, buying lots of vegetables and fruits, little bit of nuts and berries. In the evening I prepared today’s three first juices in bags so it would easy to juice them in the morning. I also had a juice already last night and it was awesome. It will take me around three to four days that I get the juice high, but I’m succeeding in this, because hey, it’s only for 28 days.

At the moment I’m feeling so tired, did not sleep well last night, but it has nothing to do with the juicing, more towards my social life or with a better work, the lack of it. I need to start getting one, going more on dates but I’m not that interested in it at the moment. Later will write a post about my bravery and broken heart that followed it.

Soon it is time for a lunch time walk to Tesco’s and I need to buy some avocados, hopefully they are not as expensive as they were in Asda last night. Or they even have some unlike Lidl. Not even one avocado. Maybe more banana’s too. Healthy and delicious stuff that is full of these good nutrients and life!